釜山的上山下海

从庆州搭大巴来到釜山，遇上一个台湾旅游人——仑；热心的她在抵步釜山以后，带我们走到一些民宿/饭店集中地；然后找上了一家饭店住了下来；虽然遇上些比较另类的事迹，但是还是感恩旅途认识的新朋友！仑还是一个法律界的专人哦！

大家还相约隔天一起出游。走了那山、那海的，感觉很不赖。。。
仑的旅游模式比较讲究计划与安全，咱两的模式就过分随性、见步行步的玩法；但是偶尔的同游也是很棒的体验哦！

第二晚在釜山，就到了海云台迎月路的高尚汗幕蒸留宿，感觉确实很赞、很优！或许我们应该在这里留宿比较长的日子哦！尔后，仑要出岛，但我们比较想要到海龙宫、梵鱼寺等等，因此大家就分道扬镳了，但是科技还是连接着大伙儿，面书上还是可以互通近况啊！

釜山市区。。。住宿地点就在山头下

釜山塔附近的亭子

就是釜山塔！
快手按下有群鸟儿飞过的照片

龟裂的大地，结伴的影子

甘川文化村的鱼儿

像不像火柴盒？

据说running man在这儿拍摄过。。。本人没有看耶

釜山电影展的谁人的手掌印？

这是一个景点，但忘了名字

同样景点，走了下海的路。。。

陆地与孤岛之间的寂寥

看了看这展览馆——爱在釜山

看到那树上的半月么？

海云台——望向海的一隅

海龙宫景色

梵鱼寺前的溪流石子

梵鱼寺的路途

就是喜欢朦胧的美

那从树枝中透出来的光啊！

爱拍影子

何年何月起，对地藏留了心

走那一遭古城庆州

走过了济州，一大早搭了机到釜山机场，跳上巴士，准备走一趟新罗古城——庆州，预计将在那古都宿上一宿的。。。

因为善德女王里的‘毗昙’魅力影响下（当然很有可能是金南佶OPPA的关系），庆州是无论如何都一定要踏足的地方！果不其然，决定始终是正确的；虽然过程中遇到一些奇怪的韩国大树，造成立马决定回到釜山留宿，也不愿意在庆州过夜。

这些惊险种种就是漫无目的出走旅游的一大乐趣与挑战，考验着我们是否可以处之泰然、美丽转身。。。悦子自信自己再次拥有创荡江湖的气魄、勇气哦！
感恩自己并没有忘记属于自己拥有的生存技能！

在韩国的釜山出走中，庆州虽然让旅程蒙上阴影，但是始终认为这是一个可以一去再去的地方！

古月悠悠的佛国寺

石窟庵

为了这半月城，走了一定的路程。。。

虽然模糊，就是爱这景色！

等待大巴到釜山市区的停歇咖啡座

济州环岛的停停走走

延续接着下来的旅途。。。。。。
虽然可能真的安排过于冗长的时间了，使得旅途有点拖拖拉拉的。。。当然这也是自己的原始流浪目的啊！
人啊！多矛盾啊！

这一路上的走走停停之间，没有匆忙、没有急忙、没有仓促，只有慢！慢！慢！
走一些，累了就找咖啡厅看那人来人往的；和友人聊东聊西的；
这是自己多么喜欢的旅游方式啊！

这些天就是如此渡过的。。。何谓悠闲？不外乎如此啊！

想，唯一一个挫败感就是————
这是唯一一个自己什么语言都用尽也不能自在遨游的国度啊！

最终，还有丁点用的居然是身体语言+日语。。。。。。

济州市区的早晨，
下着雨，叹咖啡，磨时光

停雨后出发到景点——
想看瀑布，却没开放。。。

冒雨到了济州徐福展览馆

闲逛了再一天，又是另一个咖啡座。

第一次这么挫败，用尽全力都无法正常沟通。

最后一天的济州，还是咖啡座开启新一天

美术馆

了解浓缩的济州，就在这儿！

这是关于越南什么的纪念碑

关于艺术。。。

最后一天济州，尝试一下在便利商店吃面

济州汉拿山+城山日出峰

三十的初秋之际，到了济州釜山流浪。
什么也没有计划，打定主意走到哪儿、算到哪儿；就是要一场纯粹‘见步行步’的出走！

第一天，就是在机场加飞机上渡过，抵步釜山、转机济州，这样就来到了晚上了。搭了小巴，进了市区，然后就在街上逛（当时下着雨）、寻找可以落脚的民宿、汗幕蒸（jimjibam）。终于，走了约一个小时，还是让鸡同鸭讲的旅人找到了汗幕蒸，过了第一个在韩的夜晚。

第二天，起了个大早，启程到汉拿山，目标当然是攻顶；只是很多时候人算真是不如天算，在衡量气候、时间影响下，走了数公里就原路下山。虽然出师未捷，但是踏步汉拿山，还是可以感受其魅力与力量。

汉那山脚下
http://etsuko1120.blogspot.com/

尔后，决定要去牛岛，就搭车到码头。哎呀呀，真是的！气候不佳的关系，没有船只开往牛岛啊！白费功夫啊！
但是，世事总是很难预料，人类往往都不会太了解人生的下一步会是怎么样的挑战、状况！

徘徊出发到牛岛的码头，东张西望的，看到了日出峰，未及细想，就到那儿吧！（虽然走路的过程是不容易的）

这是山坡路。
http://etsuko1120.blogspot.com/

宜人景色
http://etsuko1120.blogspot.com/

日出峰，真是人山人海啊！上山的路，不难、也不易。终究，还是抵达了。
感受那草原、那山谷、那无际景色。。。文字已经无法表达了！

第一次用手机留下这样的景色照片。
http://etsuko1120.blogspot.com/

很喜欢。感觉到漫步的风。。。
http://etsuko1120.blogspot.com/

第二晚，落脚济州某个市区的汉幕蒸，感受亦很不赖，因为当晚的蒸是一个山洞，自个儿当个洞野人的感觉相当不错的。


总费用：大概RM 2200

1ST +2ND来回机票（到釜山+到济州）= RM 800-900
2晚汉幕蒸= RM 60
食物+咖啡厅= 留恋很多咖啡厅，费用可以负担
交通=原本打算租借单车，但是计划有变，细微交通费用过于复杂，但是还是在租借单车费用内负担交通费

Time to bring condom along!

The idea of the title definitely is a passive method to deal with the depravation of social security in Malaysia. Well, it’s still a way to protect us especially the female though it brings the passive impacts to the victim.

Read through some magazines or printed copies before, the method of bringing condom along may consider the final protection for victims when encounter those rapists or certain perverts. It is definitely a lousy method to against the rape case, but do you have any other perfect and useful method? (Please provide the useful method to use while the rapist just rights in front of you if you do!)

The society changes and female no longer stays at home. They do play the roles like male do, however the ladies lack of the male’s strength in self-protection. The probabilities and chances for female to expose under the dangerous and threaten are high compared to the male. Sadly to say the condom seemed to be the last protection for female to avoid pregnancy and the diseases.

For sure, this method may help for the unavoidable case may encounter by a female. It doesn’t apply when you have others protection choices in certain avoidable cases. Female need alert enough and smart enough to protect yourself and trying your best to avoid the exposure of dangerous. When you got no way to run and escape, condom will be your survival tool! What I mean is, it cannot free you from the fate of rape, but it might help you to survive, to avoid pregnancy, and most important you stand a chance to catch the criminal!

I understand our society is conservative (perhaps they are not privately); mentioning any word like condom, sex education, sex abuse etc. in public would be so embarrasses and shy. However, ignoring doesn’t mean that it do not appear, just like the moon always exists even the day time.

Face it always the best solution in defeating the challenges. So, a condom with you no longer a joke, a shame, but it might save your life!   

Life is LIVE!

Here come September! The month for our family member formally resident in Malaysia, welcome babe Lynette! For sure, we will have a small but great welcome party for you, keep your mood await for that!

Life is never easy all these while.
For Cher, many challenges and obstacles appear and exist, luckily re-adjust the mood to calm and peace mode. I got to stand firm and realized one truth is face it and solve it step by step. It’s impossible for me to walk away and ignore all the problems.

Two things that disturbed my mind lately refer to the future and the study. But I got my strength and energy back again due to the awake calling from the pre-lost. Holding too tight and forcing too hard within myself and thus pushed into the stage of soreness and mist. When I read again what I walked through two years ago, so silly am I for struggling those mild problems.

Nothing is more important than I’m still alive!!!
Nothing is more important that I’m still breath!!!

So why should I so fear and scare for problems exist?
Live it fruitfully in daily life!

万歳！万歳！万歳！
何でも恐れていないです！！！

A Gift of Life! 生命的礼物!

A gift of LIFE
What a beautiful and wonderful term which bring a human alive once again!
If you want to know more, just click in...who knows you might be the savior for many peoples!

Always thought I did my registration during my secondary school, but then I just realized I only did it during my university time...ops...kind of embarrassed for those received the wrong information from me. ;)
Never realized that time passed so fast, and I'm the donor for almost a decade. The below picture (left side is the old version) taken fresh while a friend asked me the procedure to become a part of them. Amazing!!! The National Transplant Resource Centre need to upgrade themselves as well to follow the newly development of society. The new version of donor's card is totally in a brand new look while it no longer positioning in thin plastic and laminate status. Meanwhile it is a real card like the bank card (I didn't have the latest version but then I got it from website and probably you can check it out.) which the difference is obvious to recognize.

I did play my role to spread the organ donation message to my beloved families, friends and surroundings. It always like a sharing instead of the forcing action to the familiars.
Why did a teen decide to join the donor pledger ten years ago? Supposingly that was the age enjoying and wasting the young days...
In fact, I was wondering as well. Perhaps teens always love to be unique and to be special during the adolescent period, I might be in the trend as well...or in fact I unable to list down the reason for the decision at that young age too.
However, I will never regret to my decision and furthermore I improve the level to other donations as well. Regarding the upgrading part, might be show some sharings in latter post. ;p
LIFE is never an easy journey and everyone of us knows that well. Though it might not be easy, in fact it never be too hard if we take it seriously and easily. My quote of life just a peanut quote: LIVE in PRESENT! For sure, I'm not saying that I'm the expert to be so easy going in obstacles of life, at least I'm in the process of learning to LIVE in PRESENT. The principle never allow us to be ignored or neglected our present life, but to cherish every single moment we live on.
Good health, Good mood, Good heart.
Everything is on the trend and provide the best 'body outfit' for the needy. This is my motto.
I would say it this is my reason for the decision I made ten years back.

vivir por ahora
vivir en el presente

金钟国大马音乐会

思念无尽时

Love no barrier

Love is never right or wrong......
These Two actors really have the amazing acting skill and passion in their acting career...

Kim Nam Gil

Jo In Sung

去寻找那生存的理由！

人，愈来愈脆弱了。
生命，变得愈没价值。
但，我们也可以理解为[没价值]可以转换成[无价]，而那[无价]所蕴含的意义更是非凡啊！

许多人或多或少都会有‘死’的念头，而付诸于行动的往往就是在一个‘当下’所发生与决定的结果；只是，这一个结果是没有机会更正、改变——做了，就成真了！

完全赞同看见从报章上的一席话——

‘我不想死，但是我找不到生存的理由。。。’（大意如此，句型或有变化。）

报章传达了一个重要讯息：

生命就是要去找到存在的理由和梦想，不能因为找不到而自我放弃！

自己是感同身受的，所幸自己度过了——虽然用了年余时间让自己的心智沉淀与悟透，但也未算太迟啊！

一场意外加上生老病死，短短数个月走了两位至亲，任铜皮铁骨也没办法承受，何况看似冷漠淡然的自己对至亲的执著从来就比较深沉、内敛，那份失去的揪心之痛更是无法言喻！
当然，生活自然是向前行的——自己走到了现在，任何的打击磨练都没有让自己选择放弃，死亡当然更加不会成为打败自己的元凶！

死了，留给生者的痛苦是无穷无尽的，而且那也是懦夫的行为啊！
死亡，根本解决不了问题。

理智的自己完全明白所有的所谓道理，自己的生活亦处理得当；但是，惟独自个儿明白：

‘我找不到生存的理由和目标了！’

坦白说，那种感觉很骇人，日复一日的活着，可是却没有生存的欲望。
因为出现了一种想法‘很多事情已经尝试了，现在离开其实也不为过’，感觉上人生就这样了！

一年多的时间，才慢慢地想通、慢慢地寻找生存的理由和目的。
感谢周边的新生命、新婚姻、新生活、新感悟等等，让自己一点一滴的找到了每一天生活的存在意义。
这样日益累计的搜罗，渐渐地看见大一点、大一点、大一点的生存理由，终于走过那一段惘然的黑暗。
心灵的沉淀亦成长不少。

是的，寻找那生存的意义就是生命旅途重要的生命目标，纵然了然一身恍悟那意义或者再简单、平凡不过，亦不枉已经走过的那一生！
因为那个过程就是生命的真谛啊！

网络上也看到了这一两句话，挺有深度的，愿共勉之。


人間は命があるから生きるんじゃなくて、生きたいと思うから命があるのよ。
——人，并不是有了生命才活着，而是想要活着才有生命！

生きることは息をすることと心臓が動いていることではありません。生きることは戦うことです。
——活着，不是呼吸也不是心脏在跳跃；活着，就是战斗。

Why Not Me?

Stepping into early thirty, got to admit that, I, myself did learn at least one life theory in daily life.

  - Always react with ‘Why not me?’ instead of ‘Why me?’

Bingo, right?
Everybody definitely has straight-forward reaction when any incident or obstacle happen, we always burst out and yell directly or maybe indirectly – ‘Why me?’
This is human nature, nothing wrong when we saying so, it just proved that we are just human!

But, couple years ago, I read something about this term from some ways or some places, it provided me a chance to have a deep thought – why we never say ‘Why not me?’ in life?

Human beings face any obstacle or any negative struggle in life, the first thought definitely will be blaming why they are the one who have this fate instead of accept the fate calmly and solve the existing problem.

Every moment when we are blaming ourselves as the victim position in any situation, we tend to gain the sympathy from others, pleading the pity from public seemed may ease the sorrow caused. However, don’t we handle and solve the problems by ourselves eventually?
Any other outsider manages to help you overcome those ups and downs?

The truth is none of them manage to offer the helps even the most intimate ones in your life. It’s because life is a lonely path, nobody in the world except your own self to experience it all by yourself. Simple understanding, you’re the only master towards your heart, your soul and your body, and that’s the reason you should use ‘Why not me?’ in your life.

For sure, everyone knows that it is not an easy job to make a switch of the thinking mind, and of cause it need time and experience to train. Maybe you may take the first step whereas try to kick out the mindset of ‘Why me?’ while facing any hard times. You may just to be calm and accept the happenings and immediately turn your thinking mind to the solution mode, it works for you to reach the path of saying ‘Why not me?’ more frequently.
This is definitely a life task.

As for me, I yet to reach the final stage, fortunately now I’m on my way to solution mode instead of ‘Why me?’ stage. To achieve the final stage, life training is always needed and I do stay calm to deal with that.

Hey, dear all, why don’t you just give a try?
Remember ‘Why not me?’ in your mind and try your best to apply it in your daily life; and you will sense the miracle appears in your life!

Love and bless you all! 

Life is PRESENT!!!

Entering the quarter of 2013, life seemed not yet ready for the engine in future life; I supposed I, myself need a boost up energy for the New Year.

A full year for me to say goodbye to my beloved cousin, Hao, and half year again for me to let go the farewell for my lovely nanny, EMMA. It really SHOCKS man!
I admitted I never and never let go of myself from those sorrows, but so what for that?

Nobody is going to set any time limitation for someone to walk across the grief and the pain!
Nobody manages to feel the same like what I felt unless you too experienced the lost before!
Nobody is going to give up any life though I decided to miss them and love them always in my heart and my daily life!

I’m not the pessimistic, even things happened in these couple years really challenged my emotion and body to be stay strong and firm in dealing all these.
Huh, that’s life, isn’t it? Life always moves forward and it always do even the ups and downs happened in daily time.

I appreciated the moment I can be sad and sorrow. It allows me to love more towards my life and families.
I appreciated the obstacles happened to me for these thirty years and I do feel grateful to those were hurt and harm me before.

Cause all these happenings built up the PRESENT me!
This PRESENT encouraged me to cherish and appreciate PRESENT instead of PAST and FUTURE. In fact, none of us manage to grasp these three matters, can we? We understand it clearly and the only thing we can maybe engage with maybe just simply the PRESENT!

No PAST for me, as it had happened, pointless to look back;
No FUTURE for me, as it still an unknown, aimless to catch or to hold;
I do love the PRESENT!

Love my breath, my body, my soul every moment I still alive…open the eyes daily with grateful heart, close my eyes with peaceful mind, it is not an easy task but I do want to continue the plan.

Join me? ;)
Wish you all the best and love you!

「一歩」

「一歩」

赤いガーベラには「いつも前へ進め」とか「戦いに挑め」と言った花言葉がある

つまり「踏み出せ」と言うことですね。

A step forward! 

Moody now?
Depressed now?
Hopeless now?

A step forward brings you out of the blue...Try it!

「絆」の話

This is my article of 2012 Japanese Speech Contest which I failed to participate due to the packed schedule and short preparation. Hence, this is the only way for me to publish it. ;)

PS: I really love this word, KIZUNA, 「絆」.

皆様、こんにちは。時間が速くて、もう一年に渡された、去年日本の東北地方太平洋沖地震が勿論覚えています。その事件の発生、日本で一つの言葉を流行します。それで、「絆」です。そして、私は今日話したいテーマに最近流行な日本語の言葉、「絆」です。

なぜなら、そうなんテーマとか、事とか、言葉などを話したいですか。簡単な理由があって、その言葉は皆様に頑張る力と気持ちを送ってもらいます。もし「頑張る日本」の言葉と比べて、やはり「絆」の意味がもっと強い感情を持ってます。現在の特別の瞬間にやっぱりそうなん感情を存在して、誰と誰の痛みと悲しさもぜひ直面するができます。それで、「絆」を選らんっています。

実際には、「絆」の公式意味は国と国の関係があって、一般的の意味は人と人のつながりです。つまり、「断つことのできない人と人の深い結びつき」の意味で使われています。「絆」には「きずな」と「ほだし」の2つの読み方があります。通常、絆は「きずな」と読まれ、深い人間関係を好ましい意味と捉えます。しかし，「ほだし」は一転して深い人間関係を束縛と捉え、全く逆の意味となる。その言葉の語源にとって、離れないように繋ぎとめることから、人と人との信頼を繋ぐ意味となります。今も友情や家族間の団結を強調できることもあります。

「絆」はある一つ深い意味があります。人々の間に関与するだけでなく、あきらめない意味も含まれています。家族と友達と恋人と見知らぬ人など一緒に困難に直面し、解決し、そして生きてましょう！今の世界は勿論いっぱい問題があって、でも回避の態度が問題の解決方法ではありません。ある人も自殺のことを考えて、しかし問題がまだそのままで存在でしょうか。だから、「絆」は大切な社会責任があると思っています。

さらに、「絆」の言葉を聞こえてとも見えて、ある画面が抽象的なものを現れています。それはもっと適切なことをたぶん心と心の間に相互依存の気持ちです。それは説明できない言葉でしょうか。漢字を見れば、私たちがすぐに意味の感情を分かります。つまり、どんな長年を経ても、「絆」の強さも変わらないです。そして、それが言語の特性でしょう。だって、言語の影響はやっぱり社会に強いです。

どうな場合でも、「絆」の言葉が日本社会へ早い復旧と復興の心がお祈りことがあります。実は、「絆」は日本に適用されるだけでなくて、世の中の人々も必要な言葉です。現代人々は自然災害と人災もいっぱいが遭って、その言葉をあきらめてはいけない感じて持ってます。といえば、今の世界中で人間が自分で自分にできることを全力していて、辛い現状を乗り越えて行きましょう。それで人間の最高の財産です。

今日本の場合で、「絆」は人間と社会の柱になって、もう一回良い未来を築いて、心も復元されましょう。その結果、国家の発展に繋がり、人間の優しさも再出現すると思います。

以上、私の発表の文章です。
どうもありがどうございました。

(Amended by Maeda Sensei)

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I'm SICK since DEC!

I got to admit I'm really in sick since last December. I used to deny and continue the life more than usual, but finally I must say I really sick, and this is not kidding.
Cause it explained why I just can't have a good and nice sleep during the nights.
Cause it explained too, my emotion just like the roller coaster, sometimes up and sometime down.
Cause it finally explained I just forced myself to be tough after the lost of beloved ones.

I, didn't even realise I myself in fact involved deeply in the depression swirl whereas I thought I'm always OK.
And now it's never too late for me to realise my own problem, I speak loudly that I'm actually not OK at all.

Pointless/Aimless is my main problem for previous months. I can't figure out the reason for human to be alive.
MONEY? STATUS? LOVE? ETC...
None of the mentioned things can seduce me at all. I just felt I'm living like a zombie.
While driving, eating, even sleeping, you're just not doing the particular thing but the mind just lost control. The mourn and melancholy are the pairs and always fill the daily life.

Well, I can't recover and I knew that's just a wrong concept. However, life is still going on and that's no way for me to call off my time.
How could I? What would I? Why should I?

Now, at this time, I'm clear to admit my sorrow and glum. It still not that bad right?
Just a moment, allowed me to be weak and to be feeble......and I promise I will getting better and better.

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