ようこそ!自由の世界。

ここに私の空ですよ!
ここに多分大きくなかった、でも特別の世界です。
ここに悦子の自由の空だ!

YES! YES! YES!
yOU are stepping into a freedom world, without border......
AnD this is my place---- ETSUKO home!




Saturday, July 24, 2010

赤裸坦荡的悦子

呆在家乡放慢脚步已经快两个星期了,坦白说是有点儿不习惯,毕竟自己一直都是让自个儿的生活过的超级充实,一丁点儿也不浪费时间;而如今的放慢脚步与过去的自己而言,是浪费青春、浪费时间的!
但是,老天爷应该看见了自己的生活总是一路地往前冲,却总忘了考虑自己,因此用一个足以致命的意外来点醒自己啊!

其实,从以前到现在为止,自己从来就不觉得自己很坚强、很厉害、很无敌;可是周遭的人总是觉得自己很强势、很本事等等,完全是现在女强人的代表。
我的天啊!我还的确没有这么厉害好不好!我就只是可能比较敢死一点、独立一点,而实际上自己完全就是一个小女孩、小女人、弱女子罢了!

熟悉自己的一些朋友、一直在旁的家人们总是不约而同地说道:
“拜托,你哪里有坚强?你根本就是一个小姐性格的人啊!”

终于。。。终于。。。还是有人说出了人话啦!
是啊!悦子其实还是很小姐的,哈,而且绝对是典型的生活白痴!因为他们完全知道悦子本质就是一个乖宝宝,对于志向大事是没有想法的,有的只是他人所说的死读书,脑筋死板地对知识的追求很执着;可却也从来没有远大的计划利用知识来干一番大事业!(这样的悦子会不会让很多人大跌眼镜啊?!)

2005年在云顶

2010年在台北
2008年在吉隆坡



























(这些才是悦子的真实面!因为自己就是这样的女生啊!;))

悦子是手无缚鸡之力的弱女生,因为自己实在没有办法提起超过五公斤重的东西吧!
悦子对于生活上的点点与滴滴,是完全不了解的,因为不懂得生活细节、生活难题啊!
悦子的脑袋只能想些简单知识,而且只对知识的追求很有恒心,其他以外其实还蛮有难度!
悦子对金钱概念更是一知半解,四位数以上的价码拜托拜托就请饶过我、放过我吧!
总归一句话,悦子像是单细胞的动物。。。一个时间是没有办法做太多的事情,只能按部就班!

两个星期的时间内,自己也相对的有时间思索自己的未来计划,而这一句话好像点出了自己的心态,甚至亦是未来方向应该拥有的指标:

‘直路不一定是通往成功最快的道路。’

是的,人生可以慢、可以减速,毕竟成功的定义是因人而异,而且成功也不是用很多东西去衡量的;一个人的人生是否成功,一切终归还是要由那一个人自个儿去决定啊!

所以啊!悦子除了还是以前的那位悦子之外,同时也更加是软弱、爱哭、怕痛的悦子啦!

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

711 Reborn of ETSUKO/CHERYL



Today is the third day after I met the GRAND INCIDENT!!!

Well, many things appeared in my brain but I just don't know how to figure out and informed everyone. Many peoples called and asked about my condition but actually I was so tired.
Now, I finally had energy to read some books and noted down something after the incident with DEATH.
Be frank, I still wonder what was going on recently but the truth is I did happen something and already tried to settle lots of matters by myself.
Last Sunday, 1510, heading my way from Subang Jaya back to hometown, right at the corner, I lost control on my car, knocked to the roadside, and it twisted and overturned, finally it slowed down!
At that moment, I did not have time to think too much, and not yet had chance to closed my eyes, which meant I opened my eyes during the whole happening! I was just wonder how lucky am I! When I saw the picture of my car, I knew and realised how amazing I'm alive with slightly injure!
- My eyes still able to look at this beautiful world!
- My face still able to match any nice clothes!
- My brain, my head, my back, my bone etc... everything is okay!
So guys do you that see how lucky am I?!
I guessed I must be kind all this while and hence someone is protecting me all the ways!
Sometime I hope I'm not so tough enough to deal with any obstacle in life, however maybe I'm born to deal and settle every problem in life!
Guess what I did after the incident?
- I managed to pack my research books before I went to hospital.
- I was cleared enough to inform family about my incident and arranged the further details.
- I able to take everything I think I may need it after I sent my car to repair.
- After went to hospital, I managed to go police station to settle the following matters.
- The next day, I used the whole day to settle my car and claim matters.
And finally, I got to admit my weak on Monday! My friends forced me to admit to the hospital for further checking since I was getting high fever and vomitted twice within 24 hours!
Okay nobody can excape the checking to get the guarantee...blood test, CT scan, body ckeck-up and so on......
At the end, 12 am the next day, Tuesday, I went home with peace mind.
Had enough sleep the whole day, I finally had energy to continue life......
Many things need to arrange and settle...I knew it may be hard for lots of peoples, but I knew I can make it! Cause I have many supports...
- families that accompanied me on Sunday
- the one sent me back to KL and get all my stuffs
- the one who brought and waited for nearly a day to deal with car matter
- the one who be my driver and car coach
- the gangs who forced me to go for body check-up
- and others...
Nothing I can say but I remembered everything...I won't say much but
機会があって、絶対に還して、約束よ!

Friday, July 09, 2010

谢谢一起走过十载的。。。




“虽然命运让你遇上了种种,令你的人生停滞了几年的时间,但有失也有得;可能当下你气昏了,也累坏了,但有一天你往回头望、回顾的时候,你会觉得骄傲你所付出及所做的一切。因为逆境中成长毕竟多一份自豪及无愧,老天也会眷顾你的,只是太多人你需要守候。我们虽然不能亲身体验你的感受,只能从旁为你舒缓及解放压力。尽管向我们吐、倾、诉、流泪,我们会递上纸巾及暖暖的拥抱!加油,小妮子!”

这是一封来自相识甚久的朋友传来的讯息,那是在虎年初始的事了!
因为是自己第一次、也是唯一的一次允许自己在外头示弱、崩溃,而他们都吓傻了——毕竟自己一直以来就是理智型的台柱,是解决问题的锦囊妙宝啊!
因此,当朋友们传来如斯般的鼓励之际,自己一直保存着这样的讯息,因为那是一剂定心丸、鼓励剂,能够允许自己在一次次跌倒、一次次瓶颈的时候,重新振作,然后告诉自己:

“可以的,一步一步来。。。”

所以啊!
总觉得应该为这些点点滴滴记载些什么、留下些什么,于是写下了这一篇点滴!因为这样简单的讯息却让自己想起了那一伙陪伴了自己十年、甚至更久的朋友!人生的生活让自己可能已经忽略了他们,但是他们一直都在,没有离开。。。。。。

未来再难、再苦、再痛。。。我始终不害怕,因为我知道你们的爱一直都陪在我的身边!

谢谢!谢谢!谢谢!
爱死你们了!

I will follow you...