ようこそ!自由の世界。

ここに私の空ですよ!
ここに多分大きくなかった、でも特別の世界です。
ここに悦子の自由の空だ!

YES! YES! YES!
yOU are stepping into a freedom world, without border......
AnD this is my place---- ETSUKO home!




Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Where should I go if without doing this?

people here and there......
seemed like busy something that I just can't involve myself!

actually kind of fed up with all this things...but I just can't voice out my dissatisfaction!

Work is part of my life and without it I can't find any meaning in life! If without it, my soul just left empty...vacumm......

I'm not a weak person no matter what kind of situation I faced especially I'm the type of emulative in my life!
Life doesn't seemed easy for me all this while but I choose not to be giving up myself and be a normal person in my present life!
This is what I get now!

I not really so happy with what's the current trend but do time really can prove to me the worthiness of what I give all this while? Or maybe it was another daydream?

Who will knows?
God?

自分の人生今まで、唯一つのことは信じだ、人生の全部のことはパーワだけ決めます!何にも決めません。。。絶対決めません!

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

we no longer bid in one!


this is the day you got to leave Malaysia and have a brand new start in a unfamiliar country... ...

early in the morning, i finally found my courage to ring you up, the line is through and i'm in tempting heart cause so shock to await your voice!
someone picked up the phone, but i knew that was not you... ...

it was your dad! you already left!
i'm just too late... ...

actually i'm just own a simple mind, the only thing i hope i can do is to say VOYAGE before you go...however i'm also missed out the chance!

why can't you reply my message when i need you the most?
why can't just send a warmth message to cheer me up?
why?why?why?

i request nothing cause i knew that your mind is so firm in getting a new start in outbound, i only asked for a connection--simple friend's connection in the future time!
but you choose left with nothing......

私は絶対そのどころへいきて、君の会うことやはり会いましょ。

Thursday, August 02, 2007

2 CHOICES: RUN OR SOLVE

2 CHOICES: RUN OR SOLVE

Taking on challenges and overcoming them is how we all grow and learn. The more we develop, and the more we know, the greater our likelihood for success will be -- in every situation. That is why you should never run from a challenge.

If there’s a problem in your life, and it is pretty small, what do you do? You solve it. No big deal, since it wasn’t a major issue, right? But what if the problem were huge? What then? One common “solution” is to brush it under the carpet, and hope that it just goes away. “If I ignore it, it can’t hurt me.” That may be true in some situations, but most definitely not in all. Plus, you are sacrificing a great opportunity when you don’t face your problems head-on!

Opportunities exist everywhere, in every moment. Some of them take the form of extra steps you could take to make your life better. Many, however, spontaneously pop up disguised as intimidating troubles that you may not immediately want to address. Running from a problem can seem easy, but it’s really the more difficult choice. When you run, you expend your energy canceling or escaping the symptoms a problem produces, and hiding it from the world. When you wrestle your problem to the ground and attack it at its core, you eliminate all the symptoms and their origin simultaneously. You also gain experience that will aid you in the future.

Another shortcoming to running from a problem is that it may lead to the harm of others. Whenever a problem exists, there is a great likelihood that you aren’t the only person affected by it. If you choose to ignore and avoid it, you may find yourself temporarily safe, but your friend could be put in jeopardy. No one wants to see a friend hurt because they didn’t face their own responsibility. If you know you’ll have trouble solving the problem on your own, maybe your friend can help. If you work together, you can accomplish incredible things. It is always better to work toward a solution than toward the avoidance of an issue.

Both choices (run or solve) involve a great deal of energy on your part. However, when you run, there are risks, and you could potentially have to keep running forever. On the other hand, as soon as you solve the problem, it’ll be gone for good! No more problem, and no more worries in that area. Not only will you know more and be more capable, you’ll be free.



两个选择:逃避还是面对?

昂起头正视挑战、面对挑战是让我们成长、学习的最佳过程。在每一个千转百回的情况下,只要我们面对的挑战愈多,就更加能够了解成功的最大可能性。因此,任何人都不应该逃避挑战。

若你的人生中出现了问题,而且是小问题,你会怎么办?如果你解决了,那其实并不是什么大不了的事,因为那只是一件小问题罢了!可是相对来说,如果那是一件大问题呢?怎么办?一个比较普通的‘做法’是将之扫进地毯里,并希望就这样混过去了。“因为若我选择忽略它,那就不会伤害到我了!”诚然,在某些情况来说,这样的做法也许成立,但可以肯定的是——不是所有问题都能利用此法蒙混过关的。此外,你也会因为不选择面对挑战,而错失了一个磨练自己的大好机会!

机会是无所不在,无时无刻都存在的。一些机会让你我的人生能有大跃进,可惜的是,大部分存在的机会则是处处都会威胁至你我人生——那是你我都不会想要正视的机会!逃避问题看似一件容易的事,但那其实是最为困难的选择啊!当你选择逃避,你就会花力气去取消、逃避任何攸关问题的讯号,并且要隐瞒全世界!当你将问题摔倒至地面,并择其核心攻击,你自然而然就会剔去逃避的讯号以及问题。当然,你也获得了更好的经验,那在你往后的人生是重要的!

逃避问题的另一祸害则是将为他人带来坏处。当任何问题出现时,一个可能性是那个问题不单只是会影响你一个人。如果你选择忽视或者避开它,也许你会暂时感到安全,但你周围受影响的人可能陷入困境!没有人愿意看见身侧的人因为自己的逃避而受到伤害的。若是你知道自己也许无法解决所出现的问题,那么找周围的人商量吧!也许他们能提供援助呢!团结的力量是能够化解任何的不可能的。所以,积极地找出解决方式往往比逃避问题来得容易。

两个选择:逃避或是面对,绝对源于个人潜在面对问题的力量。可是,选择逃避的路还是有其风险的,那就是你有可能一辈子都将逃避过日子。相反的,若你积极解决问题,它到最后就会被解决的!那样的话,就没有了问题、没有了烦恼;你不单能够变得更有担当,最重要的是——你,会获得自由!

feeling hopeless......


my mood just like the sunset...without hope!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


second day in august, 2007, i'm in a shock after received a call.

maybe the God tend to challenge my life and my patience......

it just so hopeless for me whenever I think about the news.............
i'm alone all the way.................

i always thought i'm tough enough to encounter everything in life, however it is not true when it really happen......
i can feel my body tremble in the fear............shaking all the time...............

but how can i overcome it?
how?
why?

who can really appear and help me out from the struggle?

i'm really scared...a fearsome mind suddenly appeared...............how about the death??????????

what kind of the worst situation will occur????????????????????suffering?painful?worry?
or die?

why god can't just let me own a simple and harmless life??????

i want to cry.
i want to be useless.
i want to surrender.
i want to run.

can i just be a lamster???????
i wish i can do that.

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

気持ちが悪い。。。


昨日やはり自分の悪い日でした。

どうしてかな。
唯一つの理由たけ、日本語の成績は悪かったです。

時々自分の思いことが出した。
勉強のためになんですか。
試験のために?自分の知識ですか?他の理由か?

私も探しながった。

それじゃ、誰は答えが返事しましたか。

勿論ですが、私はちょっと時間がながった、日本語の勉強の時間があまり多いませんでした。結果、そんな成績があった。

昨日本当に悲しい気持ちが持ってました。自分はいつも考えりました。

最後、私は日本語を絶対あきらめなかった。それは自分の生きるの目標です。
もし目標がながった、私は本当に死ぬようにします。

とにかく、頑張ってね、悦子!君はやってるよ!!!!!!!!

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