ようこそ!自由の世界。
ここに多分大きくなかった、でも特別の世界です。
ここに悦子の自由の空だ!
YES! YES! YES!
yOU are stepping into a freedom world, without border......
AnD this is my place---- ETSUKO home!
Thursday, October 24, 2013
Time to bring condom along!
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Life is LIVE!
For Cher, many challenges and obstacles appear and exist, luckily re-adjust the mood to calm and peace mode. I got to stand firm and realized one truth is face it and solve it step by step. It’s impossible for me to walk away and ignore all the problems.
Nothing is more important that I’m still breath!!!
Live it fruitfully in daily life!
何でも恐れていないです!!!
Friday, June 21, 2013
A Gift of Life! 生命的礼物!
What a beautiful and wonderful term which bring a human alive once again!
If you want to know more, just click in...who knows you might be the savior for many peoples!
Always thought I did my registration during my secondary school, but then I just realized I only did it during my university time...ops...kind of embarrassed for those received the wrong information from me. ;)
Never realized that time passed so fast, and I'm the donor for almost a decade. The below picture (left side is the old version) taken fresh while a friend asked me the procedure to become a part of them. Amazing!!! The National Transplant Resource Centre need to upgrade themselves as well to follow the newly development of society. The new version of donor's card is totally in a brand new look while it no longer positioning in thin plastic and laminate status. Meanwhile it is a real card like the bank card (I didn't have the latest version but then I got it from website and probably you can check it out.) which the difference is obvious to recognize.


Why did a teen decide to join the donor pledger ten years ago? Supposingly that was the age enjoying and wasting the young days...
In fact, I was wondering as well. Perhaps teens always love to be unique and to be special during the adolescent period, I might be in the trend as well...or in fact I unable to list down the reason for the decision at that young age too.
However, I will never regret to my decision and furthermore I improve the level to other donations as well. Regarding the upgrading part, might be show some sharings in latter post. ;p
LIFE is never an easy journey and everyone of us knows that well. Though it might not be easy, in fact it never be too hard if we take it seriously and easily. My quote of life just a peanut quote: LIVE in PRESENT! For sure, I'm not saying that I'm the expert to be so easy going in obstacles of life, at least I'm in the process of learning to LIVE in PRESENT. The principle never allow us to be ignored or neglected our present life, but to cherish every single moment we live on.
Good health, Good mood, Good heart.
Everything is on the trend and provide the best 'body outfit' for the needy. This is my motto.
I would say it this is my reason for the decision I made ten years back.
vivir por ahora
vivir en el presente
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
Thursday, March 28, 2013
去寻找那生存的理由!
生命,变得愈没价值。
但,我们也可以理解为[没价值]可以转换成[无价],而那[无价]所蕴含的意义更是非凡啊!
许多人或多或少都会有‘死’的念头,而付诸于行动的往往就是在一个‘当下’所发生与决定的结果;只是,这一个结果是没有机会更正、改变——做了,就成真了!
完全赞同看见从报章上的一席话——
‘我不想死,但是我找不到生存的理由。。。’(大意如此,句型或有变化。)
报章传达了一个重要讯息:
生命就是要去找到存在的理由和梦想,不能因为找不到而自我放弃!
自己是感同身受的,所幸自己度过了——虽然用了年余时间让自己的心智沉淀与悟透,但也未算太迟啊!
一场意外加上生老病死,短短数个月走了两位至亲,任铜皮铁骨也没办法承受,何况看似冷漠淡然的自己对至亲的执著从来就比较深沉、内敛,那份失去的揪心之痛更是无法言喻!
当然,生活自然是向前行的——自己走到了现在,任何的打击磨练都没有让自己选择放弃,死亡当然更加不会成为打败自己的元凶!
死了,留给生者的痛苦是无穷无尽的,而且那也是懦夫的行为啊!
死亡,根本解决不了问题。
理智的自己完全明白所有的所谓道理,自己的生活亦处理得当;但是,惟独自个儿明白:
‘我找不到生存的理由和目标了!’
坦白说,那种感觉很骇人,日复一日的活着,可是却没有生存的欲望。
因为出现了一种想法‘很多事情已经尝试了,现在离开其实也不为过’,感觉上人生就这样了!
一年多的时间,才慢慢地想通、慢慢地寻找生存的理由和目的。
感谢周边的新生命、新婚姻、新生活、新感悟等等,让自己一点一滴的找到了每一天生活的存在意义。
这样日益累计的搜罗,渐渐地看见大一点、大一点、大一点的生存理由,终于走过那一段惘然的黑暗。
心灵的沉淀亦成长不少。
是的,寻找那生存的意义就是生命旅途重要的生命目标,纵然了然一身恍悟那意义或者再简单、平凡不过,亦不枉已经走过的那一生!
因为那个过程就是生命的真谛啊!
网络上也看到了这一两句话,挺有深度的,愿共勉之。
人間は命があるから生きるんじゃなくて、生きたいと思うから命があるのよ。
——人,并不是有了生命才活着,而是想要活着才有生命!
生きることは息をすることと心臓が動いていることではありません。生きることは戦うことです。
——活着,不是呼吸也不是心脏在跳跃;活着,就是战斗。
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Why Not Me?
Everybody definitely has straight-forward reaction when any incident or obstacle happen, we always burst out and yell directly or maybe indirectly – ‘Why me?’
This is human nature, nothing wrong when we saying so, it just proved that we are just human!
Any other outsider manages to help you overcome those ups and downs?
This is definitely a life task.
Remember ‘Why not me?’ in your mind and try your best to apply it in your daily life; and you will sense the miracle appears in your life!
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Life is PRESENT!!!
I admitted I never and never let go of myself from those sorrows, but so what for that?
Nobody manages to feel the same like what I felt unless you too experienced the lost before!
Nobody is going to give up any life though I decided to miss them and love them always in my heart and my daily life!
Huh, that’s life, isn’t it? Life always moves forward and it always do even the ups and downs happened in daily time.
I appreciated the obstacles happened to me for these thirty years and I do feel grateful to those were hurt and harm me before.
This PRESENT encouraged me to cherish and appreciate PRESENT instead of PAST and FUTURE. In fact, none of us manage to grasp these three matters, can we? We understand it clearly and the only thing we can maybe engage with maybe just simply the PRESENT!
No FUTURE for me, as it still an unknown, aimless to catch or to hold;
I do love the PRESENT!
Join me? ;)
Wish you all the best and love you!
Wednesday, November 07, 2012
「一歩」
Depressed now?
Hopeless now?
Thursday, October 11, 2012
I'm SICK since DEC!
Cause it explained why I just can't have a good and nice sleep during the nights.
Cause it explained too, my emotion just like the roller coaster, sometimes up and sometime down.
Cause it finally explained I just forced myself to be tough after the lost of beloved ones.
I, didn't even realise I myself in fact involved deeply in the depression swirl whereas I thought I'm always OK.
And now it's never too late for me to realise my own problem, I speak loudly that I'm actually not OK at all.
Pointless/Aimless is my main problem for previous months. I can't figure out the reason for human to be alive.
MONEY? STATUS? LOVE? ETC...
None of the mentioned things can seduce me at all. I just felt I'm living like a zombie.
While driving, eating, even sleeping, you're just not doing the particular thing but the mind just lost control. The mourn and melancholy are the pairs and always fill the daily life.
Well, I can't recover and I knew that's just a wrong concept. However, life is still going on and that's no way for me to call off my time.
How could I? What would I? Why should I?
Now, at this time, I'm clear to admit my sorrow and glum. It still not that bad right?
Just a moment, allowed me to be weak and to be feeble......and I promise I will getting better and better.
Saturday, May 07, 2011
Philosophy study
认识自己的朋友还真的了解自己。
那天一位朋友说了说关于自己的点滴看法:
"你的思想和看法太快了,超越了现在社会所能负荷的,所以总不得志也会显得郁郁寡欢。"
坦白说,自己一直都有这样的感觉,脑子里思考和探寻的事物确实是过于前卫了,往往所产生的想法没办法在即定社会中立足,因此和社会有了隔阂!只是,自己尚算是理智且现实派的一群;对于脑子里所拥有的稀奇古怪,自己没有将之浮现表现出来。。。毕竟还是处于大多数人的生存模式里头,自己唯有继续浮沉。
近日开始频繁接触哲学类书籍,认识了一下下苏格拉底、伊壁鸠鲁、叔本华、尼采等等,发现这些影响世人深远的哲学家们在当时自己生活的社会是那么样的标新立异、离经叛道,但是他们最终都被当世人认定是疯子--破坏社会秩序的祸害!
此外,这些先贤的生活同样也是颠配流离的,他们的意志坚持着他们,终至一代伟人。
所以自己的异还是维持吧!只是,自己至少会自我提醒:入世一点,思维想法仍能天马行空、突破前卫。
Philosophy is a funny knowledge...I'm learning now!Recently knew about one England author, Alain de Botton. Well I need to find out more about him and his books!
;)
Monday, November 01, 2010
Eat Pray Love
What kind of life for ETSUKO experiencing all over the year 2010? Well, that was only three words to describe, WHAT A MESS!!!
But, I'm so glad that I believe I can overcome everything and I treat all these obstacles as my challenges in life! Especially Julia's movie gave me inspiration and enlightenment to give me the strength in my self-esteem building.
A divorced writer failed to find herself in marriage and life after a long period of surviving in the so-called LIFE PATH that she lived on. She totally lost and made her life in a messy stage. She really need to take a break to search herself once again to continue her future life.
ETSUKO found herself having the similar stage like the writer whereas she unable to find her existence in human life. Many things happened in this tiger year, from the escape of the scary accident, serious sick, families' health being attacked, and others incidents; case by case, life became harder and tougher.
The writer gave herself a gap year to search herself in order to back to the life once again! She went to Italy for food (cause she lost her appetite all this while), India for the faith (with the purpose to search the balancing between reality and belief), Bali for the love (whereas she was confusing the true meaning of love). The journey seemed luxurious cause she was really capable enough to have the financial in traveling here and there. However, she did success to find herself again and able to restart the life engine and move further.
Meanwhile, what can ETSUKO do to overcome the struggles in her life? Well, she still cannot do anything right now, but still remained in the messy stage. But, she slowly reached out the solute way since she returned to her normal life gradually.
Holding on her faith in Buddha, she believed the karma theory and cherish everything she held now.
Returning the root of life, she trying slowly to maintain the simple and easy life, such as the exercise, healthy diet, the SLOW life theory and so on.
Loving the world, loving everyone in life becoming the purpose of her life since she neglected the surroundings for a period, and it was time to concern them more than ever.
Nobody can lose herself or himself in life. ETSUKO did lose herself in recent year, influenced by the environment and tried to adapt herself in it. Nevertheless, that was not a good practice cause she really could not find herself and trapped inside the swirl.
This is the end since she realized her struggle especially after the movie shown. She learn, doesn't she?
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
711 Reborn of ETSUKO/CHERYL


Thursday, April 29, 2010
A letter from 15 years old...
however this song encourages me again and again to move forward......
the music.
the lyric.
the touching.
the meaning.
the true of MYSELF.
this is the japanese version, luckily it's not too late for me to know this song.
do you know that I kept this song for a long time but never really listen it!
through mandarin version, i finally knew it!
well, japanese and mandarin version really meant for many one of us......listen it!
Angela Aki-手紙〜拝啓 十五の君へ〜
作詞 Angela Aki
作曲 Angela Aki
拝啓 この手紙 読んでいるあなたは
敬啟者:此刻 讀著這封信的你
どこで 何をして いるのだろう
現在在哪裡做些什麼呢?
十五の僕には 誰にも話せない悩みの種が あるのです
十五歲的我有著無法向任何人訴說的煩惱
未来の自分に 宛てて書く手紙なら
如果是寫給未來的自己的信的話
きっと 素直に 打ち明けられるだろう
想必一定能坦率的說出口吧
今 負けそうで 泣きそうで
此刻快要認輸 快要掉下淚來
消えてしまいそうな僕は
彷彿下一秒就要消失的我
誰の言葉を信じ歩けばいいの?
該相信誰的話繼續往前走呢?
一つしかないこの胸が
只有一顆的心
何度もばらばらに割れて
不斷的破碎、崩壞
苦しい中で 今を生きている
在痛苦之中活在當下
今を生きている
活在當下
拝啓 ありがとう
敬啟者:謝謝你的信
十五のあなたに 伝えたいことがあるのです
我也有話想告訴十五歲的你
自分とは何で どこへ向かうべきか
自己究竟是誰該朝何處前進
問い続ければ 見えてくる
只要不斷追問就能找到答案
荒れた青春の海は厳しいけれど
波瀾萬丈的青春之海雖然險惡
明日の岸辺へと夢の舟よ進め
將夢之舟朝著明日的岸邊前進吧
今 負けないで 泣かないで
此刻不要放棄 不要流淚
消えてしまいそうな時は
彷彿下一秒就要消失之時
自分の声を信じ歩けばいいの
只要相信自己的聲音昂首闊步向前走就好
大人の僕も 傷ついて
大人的我也曾有過受了傷
眠れない夜はあるけれど
而難以成眠的夜晚
苦くて甘い 今を生きている
苦中帶甜活在當下
人生の全てに意味があるから
人生的一切都有意義
恐れずにあなたの夢を育てて
所以不要害怕讓你的夢想成長茁壯吧
Keep on believing Keep on believing
Keep on believing Keep on believing
今 負けそうで 泣きそうで
此刻快要認輸 快要掉下淚來
消えてしまいそうな僕は
彷彿下一秒就要消失的我
誰の言葉を信じ歩けばいいの?
該相信誰的話繼續往前走呢?
ああ今 負けないで 泣かないで
啊此刻 不要放棄 不要流淚
消えてしまいそうな時は
彷彿下一秒就要消失之時
自分の声を信じ歩けばいいの
只要相信自己的聲音昂首闊步向前走就好
いつの時代も 悲しみを
不論何時面對悲傷
避けては 通れないけれど
只會逃避的話是行不通的
笑顔を見せて 今を生きていこう
展露笑容努力活下去吧
拝啓 この手紙読んでいるあなたが
敬起者我祈禱現在讀著這封信的你
幸せなことを 願います
能過得幸福
这些年我还算可以 至少对得起自己
谁说人生是公平的 它才不管我们想要怎样
很感谢你那么倔强 我才能变成今天这样
I guessed i facing obstacle, seemed like hard to move forward and kind of giving up...
this song makes me think of WHO M I when I in my fifteen; many things happened during that time, happy moment, sadless moment, hardship, struggle etc...
until now, we walked through and continuing our life journey with the concept to LIVE now AND CHERISH present!
past always be the past, each moment, each second, will become history moment...why don't we just move forward and take it easily?
with a smile, with some sleep, with the rest,
then finally move it and step forward!
Friday, March 26, 2010
ANGEL vs DEMON starts run...


VS
Sunday, February 07, 2010
1/285000 As long as we feel GOOD!
Well, I read these meaningful quotes from the paper, and I eager to share with everyone!
张信哲
"爱情对我来说是一种精神状态,也许你和这个人爱情的结局不是永远,你们未必永远在一起,但是爱这种精神状态是永远.爱情可以是投入一段关系,也可以是柏拉图式的,不一定要有实体关系."
黄立行
"很多人把爱情看得太虚幻,以致不懂得活在当下.如果你不相信有下辈子,只想在这辈子做想做的事,爱想爱的人,就会对爱情特别有感觉."
吴克群
"真正的爱情象长跑,有不停歇的爱,有偶尔的恨,关键是找到爱恨平衡点.但是不要干涉对方或者捆绑对方,爱情是需要自由的."
Brad Pitt
"金童玉女和才子佳人只是光环而已,真实生活着的不过是两个普普通通的男人和女人.孔雀开屏的华丽羽毛后有一个难看的屁股,我们只不过现在才转过身让人看到而已."
Monday, January 18, 2010
Keep the niceness!

There was a music performer stand for quite a long time at subway station of Washington DC. The weather was cold. He performed non-stop for 45 minutes. Started from Bach, Schubert, Manuel Ponce, Massenet and Bach again.
That time was around 8am, and thousand and thousand of office workers walked here and there.
Three minutes later, a middle age guy found out the violinist was performing, he slowed down his steps, stopped for a few seconds, and then moved forward again.
Another minute later, the violinist got his first note; a lady dropped US$1 but she never stopped to listen the music. A few minutes later, a passerby listened the performance and walked away after realised he was going to late.
Only a three years old child interested towards the violinist. Although his mother insisted to bring him away, but he still stopped to listen. Finally the mother moved him away too and the child still kept on looked back the violinist.
Along the 45 minutes performance , there was only 7 peoples stop for him! He earned US$32.
Nobody applaused for him, there was only one people found him among thousand peoples.
He performed the hardest music and the violin that he used was made by Italy famous family at 1713 which cost US$35 millions!!!


Two days before he performed in front of subway station, the show he performed in Boston were full house even the ticket was expensive!
The moral of the story is
If we do not have time to stop and listen the best music played by the best performer in the world, we will definitely missed out lots of the niceness in our life!!!
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Nothing to fear
you’re as good as the best, as strong as the mightiest, too.
You can win in every battle or test; because there’s no one just like you.
There is only one you in the world today;
So nobody else, you see,
Can do your work in as fine a way;
You’re the only you there’ll be!
So face the world, and all life is yours
To conquer and love and live:
And you’ll find the happiness that endures
In just the measure you give;
There’s nothing too good for you to possess,
Nor heights where you cannot go:
Your power is more than belief or guess
It is something you have to know.
There is nothing to fear --- you can and you will.
For you are the invincible you.
Set your foot on the highest hill
There’s nothing you cannot do
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
我儘/任性/stubborn
Finally got to admit.
Realized how selfish, stubborn, willful am I all this while!
Once a time, someone told me before I’m such a WAGAMAMA person; for sure I denied, defended further that I’m not such a person, but I’m just a person who eager to chase my dream, my happiness, my pleasure in life……
Along the chasing path, peoples surrounding me gained their ages silently, without my notice, I forgot that time passing without yelling, just gone through silently……
Quarter of the century passed, always told myself to study, to alive, to survive, to…, to ……; no matter what kind of insists that I made, seemed like follow the heart said, everything refers to personal will rather than others.
Basically, it showed the WAGAMAMA character; even I refused to admit the truth.
How much you earned?
How powerful you got?
How success you reached?
The milestones that judged you do not show through the wealth, money, power, status, etc that you fight for it; however the main things that you eager to care about just the precious time or moment that you shared with the closes persons in life……
Along the path to achieve knowledge, carry the purpose to equip own selves in life, for surviving and mind improvement as well; almost forgot the original purpose that I fight for all this while ---- stay together with families, hand in hand to deal with any obstacle that appear.
Knew it long time ago, care enough for the KAZOKU, nothing can change it! Nevertheless, the deepest feeling of mine is I never thought of the importance of KAZOKU in life achieved such unchangeable place in my bottom heart!
やっぱり我儘な人ですね!
しかし、今回の我儘の事は家族に目指します!
Friday, May 22, 2009
Merry-Go-Around------Life too!
NIHONGO starts again, and I won't join from now on; a little bit of LOST, but I knew I myself need to make a decision whether language or shushi no benkyou; and yet I did choose the latter choice and got to be full force in it...
Go for it ya!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Lessons of life......
A turtle family decided to go on a picnic. The turtles, being naturally slow about things, took seven years to prepare for their outing. Finally the turtle family left home looking for a suitable place. During the second year of their journey they found a place ideal for them at last!
For about six months they cleaned the area, unpacked the picnic basket, and completed the arrangements. Then they discovered they had forgotten the salt. A picnic without salt would be a disaster, they all agreed. After a lengthy discussion, the youngest turtle was chosen to retrieve the salt from home. Although he was the fastest of the slow moving turtles, the little turtle whined, cried, and wobbled in his shell. He agreed to go on one condition: that no one would eat until he returned. The family consented and the little turtle left.
Three years passed and the little turtle had not returned. Five years...six years... then on the seventh year of his absence, the oldest turtle could no longer contain his hunger. He announced that he was going to eat and begun to unwrap a sandwich. At that point the little turtle suddenly popped out from behind a tree shouting, 'See! I knew you wouldn't wait. Now I am not going to go get the salt.'
[ Some of us waste our time waiting for people to live up to our expectations. We are so concerned about what others are doing that we don't do anything ourselves .]
************ ********* ********* ********* ******
The Frogs
A farmer came into town and asked the owner of a restaurant if he could use a million frog legs. The restaurant owner was shocked and asked the man where he could get so many frog legs! The farmer replied, 'There is a pond near my house that is full of frogs - millions of them. They all croak all night long and they are about to make me crazy!' So the restaurant owner and the farmer made an agreement that the farmer would deliver the frogs to the restaurant, five hundred at a time for the next several weeks.
The first week, the farmer returned to the restaurant looking rather sheepish, with two scrawny little frogs. The restaurant owner said, 'Well... where are all the frogs?' The farmer said, 'I was mistaken. There were only these two frogs in the pond. But they sure were making a lot of noise!'
[ Next time you hear somebody criticizing or making fun of you, remember, it's probably just a couple of noisy frogs. Also remember that problems always seem bigger in the dark. Have you ever laid in your bed at night worrying about things which seem almost overwhelming like a million frogs croaking? Chances are pretty good that when the morning comes, and you take a closer look, you'll wonder what all the fuss was about .]
************ ********* ********* ********* *****
The Pretty Lady
Once upon a time a big monk and a little monk were traveling together. They came to the bank of a river and found the bridge was damaged. They had to wade across the river. There was a pretty lady who was stuck at the damaged bridge and couldn't cross the river. The big monk offered to carry her across the river on his back. The lady accepted. The little monk was shocked by the move of the big monk. 'How can big brother carry a lady when we are supposed to avoid all intimacy with females?' thought the little monk. But he kept quiet. The big monk carried the lady across the river and the small monk followed unhappily. When they crossed the river, the big monk let the lady down and they parted ways with her. All along the way for several miles, the little monk was very unhappy with the act of the big monk. He was making up all kinds of acussations about big monk in his head. This got him madder and madder. But he still kept quiet. And the big monk had no inclination to explain his situation. Finally, at a rest point many hours later, the little monk could not stand it any further, he burst out angrily at the big monk. 'How can you claim yourself a devout monk, when you seize the first opportunity to touch a female, especially when she is very pretty? All your teachings to me make you a big hypocrite The big monk looked surprised and said, 'I had put down the pretty lady at the river bank many hours ago, how come you are still carrying her along?'
[ This very old Chinese Zen story reflects the thinking of many people today. We encounter many unpleasant things in our life, they irritate us and they make us angry. Sometimes, they cause us a lot of hurt, sometimes they cause us to be bitter or jealous .. But like the little monk, we are not willing to let them go away. We keep on carrying the baggage of the 'pretty lady' with us. We let them keep on coming back to hurt us, make us angry, make us bitter and cause us a lot of agony. Why? Simply because we are not willing to put down or let go of the baggage of the 'pretty lady'. We should let go of the pretty lady immediately after crossing the river, that is after the unpleasant event is over. This will immediately remove all our agonies. There is no need to be further hurt by the unpleasant event after it is over.]
Science is organized knowledge. Wisdom is organized life.





