July comes again!

wondered whether the weather understood what is happening in my bottom heart......

it's moping...
it's melancholy...
and the most important is BLUE!

another july comes again...
looked through blogs, and realised that the day comes again!

peoples here and there,
life come and go,
and I still remained as who I am.

do i changed?
do i move further or backward?

i confuse with my situation already!

Been a year I put you under my pillow with the method runaround.

i always like that, any unsolved thing happened, i will ignore it...
your unsolved case is I don't want to admit that you are no longer with us.
hence, I, chose to ignore, pretending that you're still around and fighting for your own future......

my life energy seemed stunned already?!
but i still finding my way to reach out the rainbow!

eager to visit you in july...
but the reality sometimes can't allow us to be free in plenty of things, right?

why i still not yet prepared to let you go?
frankly say, we both not the close type friend, but then the reason for me to can't put down just so amazing?
positive way or negative way?

it was just a maze......